The other day on my personal twitter account I tweeted “college taught me how to enjoy myself but post grad life has taught me how to have true confidence”. To expand on that some more, I loved college and I had so much fun but what I’ve discovered is that all that fun didn’t mean I was necessarily happy. I was definitely happier in college than I was in high school. I had a better social life and I actually had better grades since I was studying what I wanted to study. However, I can’t say I was necessarily happy with myself. I was happy with my situation but not yet comfortable with me as an individual.
By the time I was a senior I had pretty bad body image and I was constantly thinking about the future. I was enjoying myself but at the same time I was constantly having “I wish” thoughts. I’ve always thought about the future a lot; I knew what I wanted to major in since I was a freshman in high school so I could work in the fashion industry. You could say no matter how much fun I was having in the present there was this lingering sense of ugh I just want to get to that point where I actually accomplish what I’ve been working towards.
Graduating, getting a job, and moving didn’t automatically give me this state of happiness I’m in now. There were definitely moments of second guessing and feeling on edge. Despite those initial feelings I worked towards getting settled in my job, making new friends in my new location, getting healthier, and getting on top of my finances. Within the past few months I have gotten to a point where I am able to be proud of my accomplishments without someone pointing them out to me. I have noticed changes in my health and I am on track to get even healthier, I have made a huge purchase due to my own savings efforts, I feel like some of the friends I’ve made this year are potential life long friends, and I have been able to maintain some of my friendships from college .
With all of those things going for me I realized one day that you know what I think I’m truly happy. I got to thinking about that even more and I couldn’t remember the last time I have been this happy for an extended period of time. I have had moments of true happiness within recent years but I’m not sure how many extended periods of happiness I’ve had.
For once in my life (well at least in recent years) I feel content. I am always going to be a goal oriented person who strives to further myself in the future, but I haven’t felt this content with myself as a person in soooo long. Please note that I am not saying fun has nothing to do with happiness. Having fun definitely contributes to my happiness and I haven’t completely given up the type of fun I was having in college. I have just discovered that having fun doesn’t simply equate to happiness. There are other contributing factors.
A lot of people are graduating college right now and I don’t have some huge piece of advice for this post. I just want people to know that while college may have been the time of your life that doesn’t mean it’s all down hill after that. You will probably never have the same level of spontaneity (due to adult responsibilities) as you did in college but personally, when I look at all aspects of my life I think I am happier now than I was then.